Bird of Prey
Bird of Prey
Flying high
Flying high
In the summer sky
Bird of Prey
Bird of Prey
Flying high
Flying high
gently pass on by
Bird of Prey
Bird of Prey
Flying high
Flying high
am i going to die
Bird of Prey
Bird of Prey
Flying high
Flying high
take me on your flight
Two years ago today I was getting out of the hospital after having surgery for a neuroendocrine pancreatic tumour.
About a week later I received my biopsy results which revealed that they had found cancer but had successfully removed it during the surgery. Kind of like the worst and best moment at once. A huge sense of relief and then waves of guilt over that I had it too easy compared to other people who had had cancer.
Such a weird thing to choose suffering over being grateful in this moment when you’re one of the lucky ones. I spent the next few months in significant pain recovering from the surgery. Physically it was bad but mentally much worse. Sleeping two hours a night, night sweats almost nightly, no workouts and the stress of putting my coaching practice on hold.
It did give me a lot of time to think about this whole being grateful vs suffering thing that I was experiencing which I could now see popping up in so many areas of my life. I struggled with this conversation for quite a while but eventually it started to shift my perspective around my purpose, relationships, well-being, money, ego and how I was showing up everywhere.
I started to develop a much more powerful relationship to manifestation, spirit and being more responsible for my energy leaks much more consistently.
I am coming through the most intense period of my own growth over the last 8 months which had been a major shit show in a few moments, lol but mostly an incredible journey that’s brought amazing people and opportunities my way and gearing up for an adventurous 2019.
Earlier this week I had my routine CT scan I do every six months to monitor any changes, which have come back clear. Shoutout to all the staff, nurses and doctors @thepmcf and United Health Network family in Toronto for the incredible work they do. Forever grateful!
I barely think about that experience anymore. It just doesn’t have any energy but was reminded by a friend this week that maybe I should. From the perspective of gratitude and that if you can overcome this than everything else is always within reach. 🖤🖤🖤
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